Rich insisted we go for a family snowshoe today, and I'm very glad he did. I needed it. I've been so obsessed with studying for my flight attendant training, I've had trouble talking about anything else.
I'm pretty sure Rich knows the passenger safety briefing by heart from practise sessions. Oscar has been running around asking us if we want a pillow or a blanket after he spent a considerable amount of time pretending to be a passenger with an infant this morning. When I practised the same briefing with Rich later, he ran over and gave Rich his "baby" (a hot water bottle.)
I've been dreaming about safety procedures, stressing about exams and I actually had a mini breakdown while waiting for my test scores yesterday, sure I'd failed. The more the girls were nice to me, the more I blubbered. When we got back into the exam room, I sat and stared the back of my test until they finished whatever they were saying and we were allowed to check our mark. We need to score 85% percent to pass exams and thankfully I passed. The relief was palpable.
I don't even think I realized how much I wanted to be a flight attendant before I thought I'd screwed it all up by failing an exam.
Funnily enough, every question I got wrong was a number question. Thank goodness I'm not training to be an accountant.
After a few hours walking in the woods my thoughts drifted from safety procedures and the alphabet soup of aviation training (ABP, CAR, CASS, ICAO, ATAC, IATA, TC, IC, FA, FAM, CT, WX, COM, IR.OP, COB, SPAX and PIC to name a few) to blissful silence.
Ozzie and I took some time to lie in the snow and catch snowflakes with our tongues. Maggie raced around like she was on crack. Poor thing hasn't had a walk in a week. We came back and had a hot chocolate with marshmallows.
From now on, I'm going to continue to do my best in training, but I'm going to try to keep some perspective. The most important thing is my family. I'm going to take the stress and pressure for what it is, a learning experience and an absolutely wonderful weight loss tool.